Welcome to
my blog. I decided to create this page to reach lovely people who
are secretly struggling with life. Life is hard and it can truly suck at
times. I'm no Debbie downer but I can get real. I've practiced the
Secret and whilst I saw some modest gains, I noticed some pot holes in
the whole ideology. I've tried the whole "fake it until you make it" and
frankly felt nothing but like a dirty fraud inside. How stressful it is
for society to EXPECT us to be happy and perfect all the time. People
ask me how I am and I still feel pressured to lie. How could I pretend
that everything was ok when I was feeling depressed and anxious inside?
Little did I know that my true feelings would become my greatest gift.
I've finally made peace with the fact that my life was terrible pretty much from the start and it's time to share my story.
My
childhood was far from picture perfect. I am told that I was born late,
heavy and difficult. I was an unwanted child and by the time my mother
discovered she was pregnant it was too late for an abortion. She
desperately wanted a son and I felt hated for being a girl. My
upbringing was full of sickness, eating disorders, violence, abuse,
abandonment, fear and depression. Often times the pain of her rejection
led me to suicide attempts. I felt isolated and as if a dark cloud
haunted me everywhere. I shied away from people because I seriously
believed I was cursed. When I finally reached the end of my rope, I fled
to London with little more than £600 to my name and no job. At 21, I
followed my instincts, pushed through the fear and trusted that I had
the power to transform my life.
9 years
have since past and whilst I've made many mistakes (and deviated from my
path) I gradually saw my deepest wishes unfold. I have now discovered
that there is more to life than getting the dream job or perfect life
companion, it's about having an honest and loving relationship with
yourself.
Despite everything, you hold the key to your own destiny. And I would be honoured to help you on your journey.
Much love,
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